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Lasting Fate Excerpt:

Preston 

I pull into the drive and the garage is open. I've told Kinzleigh to keep it shut. It's a nice area, but that doesn't mean we don't get strays from time to time looking for easy access to steal. Kinzleigh's mom should be here soon to help her with the baby for a few days. Maybe she's already here. I could use her help so I can get some work done. I'm swamped with projects and a new baby is more work than I thought. I try to give Kinzleigh a break when I get home. 

Pulling under my garage door, I park and kill the engine. I grab my satchel that I take back and forth from the office and step out of my beamer. It's been a long day. I grab the knot of my tie and pull, loosening it. When I get to the door my heart drops to my stomach. It's cracked. My first thought is that someone has broken in. I push it open and walk inside. I drop my bag at the door and pick up pace when I hear Bryce screaming at the top of his lungs. A fear I've never known races through my body. What if she's hurt? "Kinzleigh," I call out throughout the house. I get no response. When I make it to the living room Bryce is lying in his bassinet screaming and Kinzleigh is lying on the couch staring off into space like a zombie, ignoring him. His face is blood red like he's been crying for a while. I reach over and pick him up, pulling him to my chest. "Hey, buddy. Shh, shh, shh. It's okay," I say as I rock him. It's not helping. He's obviously hungry or wet. Hell, I don't know. I've never had a baby before and I'm a guy. I would get cranky if I was hungry. Kinzleigh is breast-feeding, so I don't know what I'm supposed to do. 

"Kinzleigh, when is the last time you fed him?" I look over at her, still attempting to calm him down. My ears are stinging from his constant crying. I can't think. She has not even acknowledged I'm in the room. "Kinzleigh, what the fuck?" The only type of response I get from her are tears that fall from the corners of her eyes and they trickle down her nose before dropping onto the leather of the sofa. "I can't," is all she says and goes back to staring off into space. What the hell does that even mean, she can't? 

"You can't or you won't? What happened to you? Are you sick?" He is still screaming, so I reach in the bassinet and get his pacifier, hoping it calms him a little until I can figure out what the hell I'm supposed to do now. "I can't," she says again. She's not even looking at him. I begin walking towards her in an attempt to see what's wrong and get her to feed him. She closes her eyes before I get there. "Please don't. I can't hold him. Please, take him somewhere else. Please..." I don't understand. She was fine when I left for work. I try to give him his pacifier. We don't have any formula, because she wanted to feed him naturally. How does everything change so drastically in twelve hours? 

He takes it for a second before he figures out nothing is coming out of it and spits it back out, now mad as hell. I can't deal with this shit right now. I'm worried about her, because she's not acting right, but I have to get him calmed down first. Pulling out my phone from the pocket of my slacks, I hit one of the contacts in my immediate access list. It rings for a minute before the line picks up. "Preston? It's seven thirty and the sitter just left. Do I need to call her back? Is that Bryce? Is he okay?" Her voice is drowned out by his crying. I walk out of the room with the phone up to my ear. "Hey, Macie. I need your help. It's an emergency. It's about Kinzleigh. You can bring Talon." "Anything, Preston. Is she okay?" 

I peek my head back in the door. She's still lying on the couch in the exact same position she was when I left. She is still staring at the wall blankly, no emotion registering on her face. "I don't think so. I came home and Bryce was screaming in his bassinet. She's just lying on the couch in a vegetative state. She won't hold him. I have no idea when she's fed him last. Can you bring some formula?" "I think I know what's wrong with her. I'll be right there. Give me fifteen minutes." She doesn't wait for an answer before disconnecting the call. I slide the phone back in my pocket and begin bouncing him slightly while I pat his back. His tiny head is resting against my cheek. 

"It's okay, buddy. We'll get your mama fixed, okay? Don't worry. She must have a reason for letting you cry, she has to. You'll love her. She's kind of hard not to love." His cry is dying down, from the exhaustion I'm sure, but not stopping completely. I stand in the doorway watching her. I've never in my entire life seen her like this, not even when her grandmother died. It's like her soul has been sucked from her body, leaving nothing but a hollow woman lying in this big house. I'm scared to know what that means. I need to talk to Macie. I have a strange feeling I'm losing her. I've never been in love with a girl like I'm in love with Kinzleigh, and I never will be again, but I can't stand seeing her like this. If this is going to be the girl she becomes, then I'll have to make another choice, one that is going to forever destroy me for a woman. I won't trap her. We were happy before he came back. I won't watch her disintegrate and become lifeless to preserve my own happiness. 

The realization occurs that if she doesn't get better I may have to let her go. Watching her lay as if she is alive, but dead, is killing me inside. I've never been an emotional guy until I went back to Mississippi that night and saw her the way I did. Something changed in me that night. From that point forward it wasn't about me, but her. I learned that when you love someone, you do what's best for them, even if it isn't what's best for you. I want to walk over to her right now, but I have to take care of Bryce first. I made a promise to love and take care of both of them. I'm going to keep that promise for as long as I can. Right now I'm scared and I don't know how long I'm going to get to hold onto what has become my family. Just because this child doesn't share my blood, he still shares a piece of my heart. I kiss the top of his head. He finally cried himself to sleep, but he won't be asleep long. Macie should be here soon. I can tell his diaper needs to be changed anyway. 

I stare at the girl that captured my heart from the time I was just a teenager. I've really grown into a man from then to now. I rub my thumb back and forth on Bryce's head, above his ear. "I need to leave you for a minute, but I promise I'll come take care of you," I whisper into the air in her direction. "I love you, Kinzleigh." My eyes fill to the brim with tears, but I close my lids before they have the chance to fall. She doesn't have room in her life for someone that can't contain his emotions. I kiss the top of his head; his baby smell fills my nostrils. "I love you also, buddy." I hold him close to me and begin walking in the direction of the stairs and towards his room. I'm going to savor every moment with the two of them. My brain wants me to believe that I still have them forever, but my heart is preparing me for the worst. 

After changing his diaper, I sit in the rocker and start to rock him. Macie walks in with a bottle in hand. She takes one look at me and gets a saddened look in her eyes, more like a look of pity. "You've gotten attached to him, haven't you?" "Yeah." I am not one of those guys that talk about the emotions fighting against each other deep inside. I prefer to keep to myself. Revealing parts of yourself to others sets you up for gossip and judgment. Coming from a family in the media that was something you didn't do. Kinzleigh is the only person I've ever let in. 

"I hope I'm not overstepping any boundaries, because I really like you as a boss and a person, but you know there is only way to fix her, right?" I continue rocking back and forth, staring at the wall before me. I want to know, but at the same time I don't. I'm not sure I want to know the answer, because I think I already do. "What's that?" 

"Preston, you can't fight soul mates. I know you love her, and I really believe she loves you in return, but she's meant for him. His return has changed the rules of the game. Her soul is fighting her, mourning for its other half. A doctor is going to tell you it's postpartum depression, but we both know what's really wrong with her." I'm getting mad. Things were going great before he came back. I'm not going to be an asshole and say I wish he would've died, because I don't, but she's the only girl I've ever wanted. That should count for something. "So, you think I should just hand her over to him? What kind of a man hands over the only thing he wants in life. I've only ever loved her..." 

"I'm saying you should set her free. She made you a promise, and I don't think she's going to break it. Her soul is turning against her, rebelling until she gives it what it wants. As silly as it sounds, I really believe someone can die of a broken heart. Would you rather keep her alive and well or allow her to suffer slowly? If you really love her, prove it, and set her free her from the ropes that bind her. Selflessness, that's the ultimate sacrifice in love." I look down at the bundle in my arms. I can't let them go yet. I need a little more time. She could still get better. She has to get better. I'm trying to convince myself, but it's not working. Bryce wakes up crying. "Here, give him to me. Talon is watching television in the spare room downstairs. Go tend to her. She needs someone. She looks horrible." 

I stand and hand him to her. I watch her sit in the chair, but I can't quit looking at him. "Preston..." I glance up at her. "We'll be fine. I've raised one baby. Go on." I nod and follow instructions, leaving the room. When I get to where Kinzleigh is, she looks worse than she did before. It feels like someone has a hold on my heart and squeezing as hard as they can until it pops. I get to her and squat down so that I'm at her level. "Kinzleigh," I whisper. Her eyes are void of all life and emotion. She doesn't look at me. It's as if she can't even hear me. Fuck it. I can't take this anymore. 

I slide my arms underneath her and lift her, pulling her against my chest. "I'll do whatever I have to do to fix you, Kinz. I promise." I walk her upstairs and into our bathroom, sitting her on the toilet. She slumps slightly, but holds herself up. "Lift your arms," I state. She does as I say. I remove her shirt and she lowers them back down. I unclasp her bra and remove that too. She is now sitting in just her underwear. I unbutton my shirt and let it fall to the floor. Grabbing the collar of my undershirt, I pull it over my head and toss it down on the other one, forming a pile. I work quickly to unfasten my belt and pants, letting them drop to the floor as well. Stepping out of my shoes and pants in unison, I kick them to the side. Wrapping my arms around her waist, I pick her up and she wraps her legs around me, and then lays her head against my chest. I walk over to the large round tub and step in. Reaching forward and down, I turn the nozzle and adjust the settings until the water is warm. 

I sit down as the bathtub fills with water. My eyes fill with moisture again, but this time I let them fall. My heart is breaking, shattering is a more appropriate word. The only things at the forefront of my mind are the things Macie said. I hold her wrapped in my arms and silently cry. My heart is trying to convince my mind that it's wrong, duking it out on what's best for her. I don't want to let her go. I want to love her each and every day for the rest of my life. I want to give her the world, and be her world, but after seeing how she reacted to him at the hotel that day and seeing her when she told him goodbye, and looking at her now, my mind is overpowering my heart. It's clear that what I want and what she wants are two different things. 

I could hold onto her if I wanted, but my love for her guilt’s me, and won't let me do this to her. I feel like I'm being gutted at the realization of what I have to do. I'll never be the same after this. I'll never give my heart to another woman. When I do this I'm defying everything I was taught by giving in. I'm sacrificing my happiness for hers. When her and Bryce go, my heart goes with them. After holding her in the bathtub and trying to convince myself to go back on my decision, I bathed her and gave her some sleeping medicine from the cabinet. I lay her in the bed and pull the covers over her. It doesn't take her long before her eyes begin to roll in the back of her head and her lids close. 

Her cell phone on the nightstand starts to ring. I notice it's an unsaved number. Trying not to wake her, I answer the call. "Hello." The line is silent. "Can I talk to Kinzleigh?" I look down at her. She is sleeping and looks peaceful for the first time since I got home from work. I'm not waking her. Besides, I'm about to give her over to the bastard anyway; he can let me have a few more hours. 

"Now's not a good time," I say. "Are we really going to play it this way?" He breathes and I walk out of the room, quietly shutting the door. I move far enough away she can't hear me if she wakes. 

I need him to stop calling, because what I have to do has to be done in person and I don't need him to worry Kinzleigh until this is done. "She doesn't want to see you, Breyson. Please stop calling." I disconnect the call and throw the phone at the wall, leaving a crack and a now shattered phone. I run my hands through my hair and rest against the wall, sliding down until I'm sitting on the floor. Leaning my head back I close my eyes.

Meet Charisse Spiers

I developed a passion for reading I never knew I had in November of 2012 when I decided to give eBooks a try. Since then I can't go a day without some form of a book or character running wild through my mind. For almost a year I constantly had a book pulled up on my Kindle app for my iPad. The beauty of self publishing is that you can interact with the authors, which is how I started writing. I never knew I had the creativity to write a novel until I began conversing with another Indie author. If you ever think that Indie authors don't like getting feedback from readers, you are very wrong. I began editing for a fellow author and because she took a leap of faith in me and told me to give writing a shot, I am now an Indie author myself. I cannot tell you how amazing this journey has been. It is hard putting yourself out there for the public eye with all of the reviews that come through, but it's also amazing. I have met some of the most genuine people and people I would consider friends even though I've never met them face to face. I have now published the first two books in the Fate series, Accepted Fate and Twisting Fate and I am starting book three Lasting Fate to be released November 2, 2014. I cannot wait to see where this journey takes me and feel free to interact with me here or on social media. I will respond. :)

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COVER REVEAL ❤ Lasting Fate By Charisse Spiers

Title: Lasting Fate 

Series: Fate #3

Author: Charisse Spiers 

Expected Release Date: November 2, 2014

We can't always control what happens in our lives. If anyone has learned that it's Kinzleigh Baker. She has learned to embrace the moments and live like there is no tomorrow; to love the people that we are given with all that we have. She knows all to well what it's like to have your heart ripped from your chest and doesn't care to ever experience that feeling again.

Her life has been one roller coaster of overwhelming consequences back to back. Kinzleigh has learned some of the humility she was once lacking as an adolescent. She has found out the hard way that we can't always focus on ourselves or take the important people in our lives for granted. She is working hard to live by putting one foot in front of the other. She is now forcefully embarking on a new journey; one that will be sure to cause lots of trials and tribulations on its own.

What would you do if God gave you that second chance to the one thing you would change if you could? One tragedy that could be reversed perhaps or someone from your past waltzing back into your life unannounced. Would you take it and run with it or go a different route altogether?

About the Author  

I developed a passion for reading I never knew I had in November of 2012 when I decided to give eBooks a try. Since then I can't go a day without some form of a book or character running wild through my mind. For almost a year I constantly had a book pulled up on my Kindle app for my iPad. The beauty of self publishing is that you can interact with the authors, which is how I started writing. I never knew I had the creativity to write a novel until I began conversing with another Indie author. If you ever think that Indie authors don't like getting feedback from readers, you are very wrong. I began editing for a fellow author and because she took a leap of faith in me and told me to give writing a shot, I am now an Indie author myself. I cannot tell you how amazing this journey has been. It is hard putting yourself out there for the public eye with all of the reviews that come through, but it's also amazing. I have met some of the most genuine people and people I would consider friends even though I've never met them face to face. I have now published the first two books in the Fate series, Accepted Fate and Twisting Fate and I am starting book three Lasting Fate to be released November 2, 2014. I cannot wait to see where this journey takes me and feel free to interact with me here or on social media. I will respond. :)

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COVER REVEAL ❤ Reviving Haven by Cory Cyr

The only man Haven Wells ever loved left her broken, feeling emotionally battered and imperfect. Seven years later she's found solace in the bookstore she owns, finding love between the pages of the books she reads. Haven has adapted to a life without love or men, living vicariously through her best friend and roommate.

He's Perfect. Just ask him. Latch McKay is gorgeous, rich and successful. A famous graphic designer, he's well known for the video games he creates. However, he's also known for the trail of women he leaves behind. Latch is the walking, talking definition of wanton sex.

When Latch sees Haven at a party it's lust at first sight. A night of intoxicated passion leaves him wanting her so much he's almost willing to give up his man-whore crown. Haven has no idea why this gorgeous and much younger man wants her. After two weeks of Latch stalking her...his version of wooing — Haven has tried everything to make him go away.

But, Latch doesn't give up, and Haven finally agrees to one date. If Latch can break through Haven's walls, he just might have a chance to keep her. Unfortunately Latch has a secret of his own. As Haven's walls begin to crumble, Latch's dark secret begins to emerge

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A Wrecked and Ruined REVIEW

 Aly Martinez weaves together a wonderful story of love lost and the ability to love again. Although the author notes that each book in the series is a standalone, I believe they should be read together and in sequence. To fully understand the events that take place in the Stolen Course you must have knowledge of the trials encountered in Changing Course. Aly does a good job of interchanging past and present events to give the reader some insight of what happened but that alone wouldn’t have been enough

The first book, Changing Course is Brett’s story. We meet him and his wife Sarah in the prologue and this heartbreaking yet powerful introduction left the reader wanting to know how they got to this point. Brett begins by telling us how he met and fell in love with Sarah Erickson.  Brett & Sarah meet at a bar one night. He immediately finds Sarah to be funny, lively and energetic and later that night he gets to do what every guy wants to do with a girl. NO NOT THAT!!!!  (dirty minds). Eventually they fall in love and get married, then the unimaginable happens and nothing is as it was.  

Sarah is involved in a tragic accident that results in the death of one of her best friends, Manda who is also the fiancé of Caleb, Brett’s best buddy.  Death is not always physical. Sarah as we know her, died in that accident along with Manda. She is no longer that funny and energetic woman Brett first met; she is now angry, depressed and unstable. But in spite of this, Brett stays unhappily married to a woman he feels obligated to take care of.  Four years after that awful night, we find Brett still married to Sarah, and only existing. That is until a certain barista Jesse Addison, asks him out on a date.

Stolen Course, the second book in the series, is Caleb’s story and picks up where the end of Changing Course ends. Caleb always felt that Sarah was responsible for Manda’s death, but when Sarah’s sister, Emma, comes to take care of her, he can’t hide his attraction her. They began as friends with Caleb calling Emma with update on Sarah’s recovery. Eventually the friendship turns into a “friends with benefits” association and the real story begins.

Caleb and Emma’s story is not easy. He has to weigh his feeling for Emma against the hate he has for her sister. Emma isn’t blind to his feeling but she struggles with loving the man her sister’s best friend was engaged to. The two of them have to find a way to be together in spite of the challenges.

In both books the course of their lives are changed by a single event. Brett’s course changing with the death of his wife as he knew her and Caleb’s course stolen by the person he holds responsible for the accident. Both men eventually find their happily ever after but not before secrets are revealed that could once again rip their hearts out.

These emotional stories are well written and told in alternating points of view. Aly Martinez does a wonderful job of grabbing the reader’s attention making you stay until it ends. For this reason I have rated each book with 4 Beautiful Red Roses.

The third book Broken Course is expected to be released October of 2014.

Each book is priced at $2.99 on Amazon and are available to loan on Kindle. If you do pick up the book please let me know how much you like them.

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TRAILER: Fifty Shades Of Grey

This is the book that re-started my love of reading , re-introduced me to Erotica and peaked my interest in the world of  BDSM. Now we have The Movie. I don't know about you but I am both excited and afraid that the movie won't live up to my imagination or expection. I was disappointed when Charlie Hunnam had to pull out of being Mr. Grey,  but I 'm hopefully Jaime Dornan will do it justice.


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Hello World, 

My name is Altovise (Sinamen) and I am new to the blogging world. I have always loved to read and often times I would hideout in my room with a good book and a bag of candy. At some point I realized that I didn't have time to read or maybe it just wasn't a priority. Then I had to take time off from work due to an illness and I was bored out of my mind. So a Facebook friend recommended that I read Twilight. So I got a ride to my local Barnes and Noble bought the book and ended up reading all four books in the series in one week. I joined a local book club through Meetup.com. We read The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo and again I ended up reading all the books in that series within a week. After two meet-ups the book club dissolved and again I was without something to read. So I went back to Facebook, someone recommended Fifty Shade of Grey and yes, I finished that series in about a week.  I went back online but his time I googled “What to read after Fifty Shades of Grey” and that's the beginning of the end.

I found Maryse's Book Blog and read just about every book on her list titled "What to Read after Fifty Shades". Needless to say I was hooked. I was then directed to rand when I realized I could get the kindle app on my Galaxy Tablet, it was over!!! I could get TONS of BOOKS for less than $5 and a lot of them were FREE!!!! I was in Book Heaven. I found more blogs, book clubs and Facebook groups which resulted in more book recommendations!!! 

So fast forward to here and now. I decided I wanted to start a blog to write about to books I've read. I want to introduce my friends and family to some wonderful new authors and the world that they've created. I started researching blogging and here I am. 

I am a 30 something single parent of a teenager. When I am not being a mother, nurse, psychologist and cook, I work full time for a large technology company. After all of that is done I spend the remainder of my day curled up with a good book. 

I've read various genres including Christian fiction, Christian non-fiction, Self- Help, and Cook Books. Right now my focus is all things Romance. I love Young Adult, New Adult, Contemporary Romance Paranormal Romance, and Erotica to include BDSM. I love SMUT or Mommy Porn :)

Thank you for taking the time to read with me. I hope you enjoy my blog and if you do please share with a friend.

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REVIEW ❤ Beautiful Oblivion by Jamie McGuire

After initially reading this book I wasn’t sure on how to rate it. I had more questions than answers at the end and needed someone to tell me what i missed… but more about that later. Let’s talk about what I loved. Olive!!!! She was has cutest personality ever and for a 5 year old she has a story of her own. I'm not sure of where Jamie got the inspiration for writing this character but I LOVED her!!!!

Another thing I loved was Trent and Cami together. Although we are told that Trent had feelings for Cami since they were in elementary school, I loved that they became friends prior to Cami realizing that Trent was “the one”. As they hung out and got to know one another it became evident that his feelings ran deep but she continued to “friend” him when they were so much more. I hated that Cami couldn’t make up her mind when it was evident that her relationship with TJ was almost non existent. If my boyfriend canceled on me every time we had a weekend planned he would not be my boyfriend for very long, I’m just saying. I also didn’t like how she ran to TJ after telling him about the kiss. He had no plans to see her prior to that and when he figured out that their relationship was in jeopardy he immediately books her a flight to California. Then we have the scene in the airport… Enough said.

Trent would not be a Maddox if he didn’t have the FIERCE need to protect the women in his life. He is brotherly in his relationship with Olive and they have the most adorable relationship. She is a little lady and that cigarette conversation.. LOL!!! I wanted to stop smoking after that. Trent showed his protective side with Cami when he went with her to the family dinner. And that’s where we meet the biggest asshole of them all her father. I think Trent held his own there and had to keep himself planted in his seat because I wanted to slap the taste out of that man's mouth. He was rude and belittling to his wife and daughter.

So why can't I rate the story....

First, the story of Cami's relationship with her family seems unfinished. I didn't understand the need to keep the "incident" a secret from her brothers, if they were the loving and protective brothers we were introduced to initially, they would side with Cami. But I don't know, I probably missed something.

Second, Reagan’s relationship with Kody and Jason. Why do good girls love bad boys? Face is Jason was another asshole that only wanted Reagan when she was happy with Kody. That drama was crazy.

Finally, the SECRET.  Cami's reason for staying with TJ never really made sense to me. He didn't make her a priority in his life and it like that was fine with her. Everyone else saw this but I couldn't figure out why she kept making excuses for him, until a conversation she had with  Reagan that hinted at a "secret". Apparently its revealed at the end of the book, but I think I missed it. As a matter of fact I know i missed it cause after reading the ending 5 times I still couldn't figure it out.


******UPDATE*****  After discussing with other readers it was brought to my attention what I missed and THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING!!!!! With that twist this is a 5 star book easily!!!!  I never thought of that that could me it, even after reading it 5 times, I felt like an idiot. I’m sure there is more to this story and we will get the rest in the next book or maybe the following.